Everything in existence shares the same essence. This is a root source of the universal experience of Oneness, pervasive compassion, Beingness that equally radiates through all beings and circumstances had over millennia by people in various traditions. An underlying theme in such experiences is abundance: the richness of life, the abundance of gifts and nurturance and Presence that blesses us each and every moment as well as is functioning within and all around us.
Those who have been cut off from this natural abundance are the prey of forces of greed and self-importance. But, the world in its functioning, in its fundamental condition, is one of riches beyond compare, in which there is actually no need to take and keep for oneself, but in which all existence is offering what each being needs.
Your essence is pure and total consciousness. That truth of being and natural state is your fundamental condition. Superficial, momentary, or imputed conditions are … as these terms state: superficial, momentary, or imputed. Like clouds in the sky, or dirt on clothes, or stars at night such conditions are temporary. They might be beautiful or distressing, bothersome or awesome but they are not the fundamental condition. Let’s discover the essence.
We further the discovery of “essence,” “pure and total consciousness” which are words and meanings trying to convey your nature which is Awareness. “Mind” is another word that can point toward this ever-present, unconditioned nature of Awareness-Being. It is essential, however, to remember that these are words, sign posts that might help with orientation but are not the unwordable in-this-moment truth of Being that you are and that all phenomenal existence is. The unwordable, though present every nanosecond, must be experienced.
The experience can be simple and straight forward like overwhelming emotion when innocence is abused, slaughtered, or defiled. In such a case, pure consciousness within one’s self has been elicited by the innocence of an animal or child or purity of intention. Innate purity has encountered expressing purity. We are overwhelmed with sadness or powerlessness, etc. because the moment of defilement is recognized as totally unnecessary, therefore out of kilter with natural purity and innocence.
Awe is straight forward; the feeling of something as wondrous is also. Moments of love can be direct. Such tend to be freed from the relationship at hand. For instance, my first-born was two or three days old and had fallen asleep at breast. Everything about the experience was raw, precious, new and uncontrived. I gingerly put Alicia in her little crib by the window, pulled the chair close and leaned on the edge of the crib to watch her breathe. Within seconds a timelessness opened, newborn baby Alicia’s distinction faded. She was all babies, I was all mothers, and the eternal bond between mother and child, protector and nurturer and innocent vulnerable presence dissolved any feelings that were not true to this Truth.
The meditations this week have been scantily guided. If your “essence is pure and total consciousness”, then whatever experience you are having is born of your essence. Human beings tend to identify with whatever fleeting characterization is arising in a moment, therefore not with “essence” nor with “pure and total consciousness.” Yet, the recognition of this dualistic conundrum can be a discovery, an open-eneded invitation, a softening and opening to innate pure Presence. Is “it” this simple? Yup.
The key here is consistency. We are pretty consistent in seeking gratification, or entertainment, distraction, or drama. We’re pretty good at finding the one thing that, to our senses, is slightly out of place. Okay; I resemble that! But with that understanding, one can laugh at how silly we can be about anything including our self and already present Presence.
What “pure and total consciousness” is, no one should try to tell you. Your discovery in any moment of your “essence” is what matters. Words veil, confuse, become projections and conjure expectations. Let them go. Simply abide in the openness of present moment. There alone one will meet “essence, pure and total consciousness.”(Oh, and let go of your definition of the word “total”, too.)